Tum hi toh ho

मुझे भर सब प्यार करने वाली

तुम ही तो हो 

मेरी हर बात मानने वाली 

तुम ही तो हो

मुझपर पूर्ण विश्वास रखने वाली 

तुम ही तो हो

मेरी हर कोशिश में मेरा साथ देने वाली

तुम ही तो हो

मेरी हर भूल के बाद डांटकर माफ़ करदेने वाली 

तुम ही तो हो

हर परस्थिति में मेरा साथ निभाने वाली 

तुम ही तो हो

खुद भूके होने पर भी, पहला निवाला मुझे खिलाने वाली 

तुम ही तो हो

दूर रहकर भी परे न होने वाली 

तुम ही तो हो

मेरे अंतरतम से जुड़ने वाली 

तुम ही तो हो

मुझपे मरने वाली

तुम ही तो हो

दुनिया से ना डरने वाली

तुम ही तो हो

सालों तक मेरा इंतज़ार करने वाली

तुम ही तो हो

मुझसे सदैव प्रेम करने वाली

तुम ही थी

तुम ही हो

तुम ही रहोगी।

to be with You

 

To be with you is not simple 
Reveling in your company is not simple 
Experiencing my aliveness reflected by your being is not simple
To be touched by you is not simple 
Being loved by you is not simple 
Melting away loving you is not simple 
Meeting you in this life is not simple 
The thirst you quench in me is not simple
To realise that you want me is not simple 
You never asked me to change is not simple 
You always said yes, is not simple 
What you endured for me is not simple
How I think and feel about You is not simple
Sweetheart having you with me is not simple 
Love You ❤️

kranebits #28

एक मिली ❤️, नेक मिली 🥲

kranebits #26

 Love, thy fragrance is in care.

Only You could

 

Dear Wife,

Only You could
talk to me endlessly

Only You could
answer all my questions untiringly

Only You could
not bear to see me lonely

Only You could
feed me the first morsel of food after being hungry all day yourself

Only You could
kiss me like no one is watching

Only You could
be the one I need to hug

Only You could
see through me

Only You could
break and make me again

Only You could
care for me like no one else would

Only You could
quench my inner thirst

Only You could
sync with me like nothing else in the World would

Only You could
believe in me, the way even I wouldn't

Only You could
see my hidden potential

Only You could
trust in me like no one else would

Only You could
confide in me all your secrets

Only You could
show me your deepest wounds

Only You could
hold my hand like no one else would

Only You could
have faith in me when I guide your path

Only You could
wait for me eternally

Only You could
claim me as forever Yours

Only You could
dissolve in me completely

Only You could
Love me like no one ever would

,Love.

There is no way to say

 Dear Wifey, meri Jaan 💕

there's no way to say

how much I miss You

There's no way to say

I still look around everywhere for You

There's no way to say

the ways in which You complemented me

There's no way to say

You truly completed me

There's no way to say

how much I cared for You

There's no way to say

how much You mean to me

There's no way to say

that there can be no one else now

There's no way to say

that you were, are and will be the only One for me

There's no way to say

I still believe in myself only because of You

There's no way to say

what you have made me realize

There's no way to say

what I'm going to do for You

There's no way to say

how much I Love You 💓

Women in my life..

My 100th blog post ought to be Special, ought to be dedicated to someone Amazing and ought to be released on a Special Date

This Woman gave birth to me, nourished me from herself, drenched me with her Love and Mamta all these years, has been a sanctuary for me always and Loved me more than anyone else in the world, she is still at it. Only after growing up to a certain age and maturing to a particular level of understanding, have I known her struggles. As I grow into a man, she is getting older and many things will never be the same, I have to prepare myself and herself for the same.

I wish she takes up Yoga, Pranayam and Meditation on a daily basis, but being a devoted House-wife taking care of each & every need of the family, she gets very tired which leaves little or no room for her personal activities. Only now I have realized that all these years, whatever she has been doing day-in and day-out taking care of all of us, without any deviation whatsoever and going the extra mile many times just to please us, that is her Actual Sadhana. Her daily work itself is an Arduous yet fulfilling Sadhana.

My Chachi (Uncle's Wife), has been a second Mom to me and my younger brother, ours being a joint family. As soon as she was engaged to my Uncle, she used to treat me and my brother with delicious food items. After she married into our family, she started cooking fancy food at home, as a result we got all nice and tasty food-stuff at home itself. That was her way of showering Love on us children by regularly treating us to New Dishes, all hygienic and Home-made, thus greatly cutting down our need or desire to have street food or restaurant take-outs.

My Sister from another Mother(My Paternal Aunt's Daughter), is my rightful Sister for all Intents and Purposes. She's the sister I spent my childhood weekends and vacations with, enjoyed fun stuff together, games and dances, movies and music, TV and stuff, maturity and spirituality; all this and much more was shared among me, my brother and her; which is now etched in our minds as beautiful memories. She is a young Mother now and as life progresses, we both support each other during difficult times and the bond keeps strengthening with each passing day. We also share all the good news and achievements of Life with each other, otherwise what use is good news if you don't share it with a Loved one. Before my marriage, I had told her She's gonna get a best friend in my to-be-wife, which she realized after meeting my Wife.

My Wifey, from whom I was physically separate as anything, came into my life, loved me dearly, made me hers(rather, after meeting her I never ever wanted to be without her in my life), we were madly in love, the minds started tuning, we had same likes and dislikes, same outlook towards life, we began fusing into each other literally. One of the best things about her was, she Perfectly Complemented my lack of certain qualities by her people skills, this made her my Better-Half indeed. There is a certain thirst in me which was quenched only when I heard her voice on the phone, or met her in person and at present I get that feeling only when I see her in my dreams. I always felt Oneness and Closeness with her in spite of the physical distance between both of us for most part of our lives before our marriage. She did everything for me, all that a devout Wife would do, she not only gave herself completely to me, but also Accepted me in Totality for whoever I was, without ever asking me to change. This was her True & Self-less Love for me, which I now understand in its entirety.

That Oneness with my Wife is nowhere to be found with anyone else now, not that I am looking for it from other people. That experience of Oneness with my Wifey was only once disturbed and went missing just 1 day before my Wifey passed away, on that day the physical distance between us was zero, but the life energies were not fusing with each other like before, perhaps a disaster was about to happen and it did too; I couldn't save her even with all my love.

All my life, my Mom and Wife have been unfair to me.

unfair: not based on or behaving according to the principles of equality and justice. At times, I have been avoiding, disappointing, hurting, sometimes keeping the truth from them, but all they gave back to me was Undying Love, Constant Care and Endless Support; so unfair right! 

Mom Loved and nurtured me in such a way, that I turned out to be a decent man who puts Love and Care above everything else, who can easily put his guard down when surrounded by Loved Ones. Chachi now, not only feeds me but also teaches me the art of cooking, so that I can become a better man. My Sister and I are round-the-clock support for each other, and will always be. My Wifey Accepted me totally and Loved each bit of me. I am forever indebted to these Women who have Invested their Life on me Literally! Now, there lies a huge responsibility on my shoulders, to live a life which is worth this much amount of sacrifice and love from these Amazing Ladies.

Dear Mom, I will keep loving and taking care of you always. Dear Chachi, as time progresses I will prepare good food, and you shall relish it. Dear Sister, we will always be there for each other. My Sweet Wifey, you are never out of my mind, I know what I have to do.

Thank You God for blessing me with the Best Mom, Wonderful Chachi and a Caring Sister and on top of that gracing my Life with the Perfect Wife.

Me & Jaan

Me & Jaan(now Wifey)

Married on 21/01/2015 

kranebits #10

In Love

We do

In Love

We Believe

kranebits #9

kranebits #7

 
      loving you is everything,
being with you is a different story altogether
 

kranebits #4

You may help with money the people you are concerned for, but the ones you love and care for shall always get your time and energy.

kranebits #2

अगर खुदा से दुआ में किसी का प्यार मांगो; तो उनसे बाँटने के लिये सुहानी धूप, खुश्क हवा, बह्ता पानी और पक्षी-गान भी मांगना।

Taj Mahal

In 1632 A.D., Taj Mahal was built by Mughal emperor 'Shah Jahan', in loving memory of his third wife 'Mumtaz Mahal'(Arjumand Banu Begum). She died during the birth of their fourteenth child, a daughter named 'Gauhara Begum'. Though the famous monument is technically a mausoleum, where eventually Shah Jahan too was buried after his death in 1666 A.D., but due to its magnificence and sheer beauty we overlook that fact and count it among 7 wonders of the world. Though I haven't visited the great monument but looking at its images, makes me wonder that so much was the love of the king for his queen that he spent many a years and huge sums of money on construction of such a gigantic structure. That would be considered symbol of love world over, even several centuries later.

Today in 2012 A.D., the year of troubling questions (Prophecy of Nostradamus and Mayan calendar, etc) about continuum of our existence and possible destruction of earth by natural disasters and man-made causes, people still Love. Amidst fast-paced life, suburban rush hours and health complications at an early age, true love finds its place in young and mature hearts alike. With today's world economy a common man finds it difficult to buy an appropriate house for his family along with securing admission into A-Grade schools for his children, let alone getting a blueprint of Taj Mahal. These days life is tough to even get by, i.e. if not stricken by accidents or sudden illnesses or other silent killers, if any of this happens then hell breaks loose.

But I believe, Love still enjoys being one of the best things in a Human's Life, thriving upon pure and deep emotions. When you are in Love, and at the same time struggling with economy and social life, you still try to be nice and keep each other happy. This undying effort in all times is fueled by true Love. You may not be able to build a Beach side Villa, for your loved one but, you can love them to pieces. You can make your partner feel as if their body is your place of worship, and yours is a fort guiding them from worldly troubles of this life. You can lead a life, giving them the key to your heart forever and making them feel privileged of it, of course both partners have to come forward for such arrangements to work on both sides.

In love, communication is the key to a fruitful, satisfying and a successful relationship. If you leave aside frequent meetings, roaming in malls, showering each other with expensive gifts and even reduce physical intimacy to an extent, just try to maintain good communication. And with that your relation would still be in a state of bliss, owing to communication. The human mind is no doubt a complex structure; on top of that a Lover's mind is entirely a different thing. Communication is a bridge between these two complex structures, i.e. the minds of Lovers. In a new relationship, the bridge is large and long. As both partners mature along with their relation, they get close and the bridge becomes shorter and narrower. When lovers recognize each other fully and their Love is at its deepest state of selfless love, the bridge vanishes and the two minds become One. The One Mind entity is nothing but their Taj Mahal. And it can be rightly called so, because of the love, time, efforts and sacrifices both partners have put into it.

Thus, in this modern day Life one can aspire to build such a Taj Mahal out of Love for their partner.

Still Life

The city climate is unstable, rains, heat wave, and winter breeze all coming over and going away within a span of few days, Ulhasnagar is raining in November strange, yet ok for me, because anyways what difference does it make to a Still Life, like that of mine.

No progress whatsoever since years in me and my work, no development in my Quests for a better tomorrow, no advancement in my techniques to overcome this status-quo which I've been holding onto since last many years.

But, as always I would try to change it, (if I really want to I mean), hell did I ever want the change, maybe the answer is No, and it was all sub-conscious, because I was never the direct target of the ill situations and mind numbing problems that were inherently brought-up by me in this world, making other's(the ones that I love and mean the most) lives near hell, and yet I never changed myself for so many years(shame on me).

Living this life is like standing knee-deep in river Ganga, the stream gracefully flowing caressing me, and I can only see it go away before my eyes, approaching me from back and just running past me so lovingly and healing my self-hurt life, the Ganga like those many people in my Life who did all the good things for me and yet it is strange, I can't Thank all of them all at once, can just try to do my part by being a right person and forwarding my feelings of gratitude with devoted good deeds towards all of them as one, at this very instant itself and individually too, the Ganga be prayed to with joint hands and a thanks from a man to God.

Yet, the sweetest lesson I've learn't is, Love is Alive, is it always was meant to be, and yet after so many years the Nectar of Love still touches my heart and is Sweet as it Ever was and as it ever could be.

Thanking all the people who played their part better than me in my Life. Cherishing the Godly Parents that I'm a son to, and much Love Jaan(ever wishing to be with you always).

Mother

         Mother, Maa, Ammi, Amma, Amad, Mummy, Mom all are names of the Divine figure on earth our 'Mother'. What do you feel, what comes to your mind, when you read this word? Your school days when she let you have a fun time, fed you nice, made you sleep by caressing your head or your teenage years when she kept up with your erratic college schedules by getting up early and going to bed too late or are you reminded of the days when, how even after your marriage she took care of you and your spouse alike in her own loving ways, whether you are a girl or boy, good or bad, young or old, Mother's Love always remains Same, Eternal and Ageless just like Herself.She stands by us always whether we are right or wrong, protects us from every possible threat, endangering her own self, she guards us against all the possible threats from the whole world courageously.

         She gives us all we ever want and fulfills each of our needs, we never even bother to think, what is necessary for her and whether she has it.She cares for us meticulously all through her life, we never even have a good look at her, how she looks, is she alright, no we never do that.She prepares nutritious food everyday and lavish meals on special occasions, but always feeds herself with the left-overs as if she is a dustbin.

         She teaches us the Right way to live, we never think, How wrong we have been treating her so bad.She tells us to straighten-up ourselves and behave nicely, for this we resent her and hurl insults.She works all through the day to meet our requirements, we never care to lend a hand and ease her stress.

         Instead, when she steps back sheepishly in-front of an electronic escalator, we shout on her calling her an embarrassment, but never take her out for walks and let her gain some confidence in her middle-age.When we notice hair in our lunch, we scream and give-up the meal, but never notice her damaged gray hair and take her to a doctor.We are irritated when she can't handle the T.V. remote properly, but we don't realize that she actually never got time to sit-back and relax in all these years that passed by.When we can't find a thing in kitchen, we yell obnoxiously, but fail to imagine how she caters to our one hell of a family.

         Mother Loves us, and always forgives us even after her death, but God stops forgiving us the day he takes Her away.


P.S. I have no words to describe you Mom. Love You.

NauJawan Pyaar

Darta nahi ye pyaar uske baapse
Darta hai sirf apne karm ke paapse

Is umar mein itna kuch kardiya
Sab kuch yuhin complicated banadiya

Pyaar tujhe karta hun bahut jaaneman
Saabit nahi karpaaya abtak apne dil ki aggan

Yaad bahut karta hun tumko
Roz thoda marta hun samjho

Kami tumhari chubhti hai mujhko
Dinbhar akela rulati hai phir toh

Phone par adayein tumhari lagti hain khaas
Jaane kab sachmein baithogi mere paas

Kadi mehnat se tumhein banaunga apna
Phir hoga poora humdono ka sapna

Galtiyon ko meri kardo maaf
Is gandagi ko kardunga zindagi se saaf

Nibhaunga tumse har ek vaada
Karunga pyaar tumhe khudse bhi zyada

Musibaton mein sahara tum ho sanam
Jeevan ka pyaara lakshya bhi Tumhi ho, kasam.

...cally

Dear Jaan,


We are together historically
We speak, whenever in public, sporadically
We always behave ethically
We stay far away geographically
Whenever we meet, it is planned technically
We argue, opposing each other diametrically
We correct each other grammatically
We explain each other diagrammatically
A secret is enclosed behind our lips, hermetically
We live through each tough day, drastically
We love each other dramatically
We kiss over the miles aerodynamically
We hug tightly in our dreams ergonomically
Our fate is suspended mid-air, critically
We will always be together psychosomatically


Love You Shona.

Take my Offering

The gushing sin waters
are threatening to engulf me
I face the limitless depths
on the sandy shores of Western Ghats
The guilt inside me dancing with ebb & flow
I had closed my eyes only once to be bad
The salty waters in here
are powering my nausea very bad
I turn my back to the quiet sunset
and for days together I run like a mad
Atop the serene Sahyadris I reach panting
it divides the two states of me
The air of self-destruction I left behind
pure cool breeze that I breathe
your kiss sent me in time
That morning you walk me through the Sahyadris
clearing up a timid and perplexed mind
I hug you puppy-soft
hereafter, you take complete charge
We breathe the same breath
harmonizing our two lives
I am all yours since ever my dear
my last beat shall die with thy name
And now I offer you my thorough-self completely
Annihilating me in the love into you
For we shall become us
and us shall become One
I thus give-up this me
Transcendentalizing myself into Thee

- Yours from the core to the brim,
Amit.

P.S. I Love You Jaan.

Love-Letter

Dear Jaan(missing you),

        I would define those times as happy when you and me were overlooking each others' faults, going out of our way to please each other, neglecting personal stuff, ignoring other people (even family and friends), those times last for a short period. But when we had it, the honey of love was spread to every second of the day, your talk was always kind and your words caressed my mind.


        We have even seen those times, when everything good vanishes, nothing sweet or nice remains, we don't even remain lovers, we hate each other so much that, our ego falls short of insults to hurl at each other, I don't know how does it happen or why? But yes we have had our many loveless days full of grudges and a mind full of hate-froth covering the true Love that we long back found in each other.


        In good and bad times both, I always felt "this is going to stay and won't change now", but it always changed, the Whites turned Black and subsequently Blacks faded to Whites.For years now, I have seen this cycle in our love-life, perhaps its a balance for us to live together forever, to love each other even knowing each others' mistakes, shortcomings, faults and our dirty attitude when we fight.


        But I want you to know that when we fight, I abuse you, hate you, even then I never wish something bad happens to you, I never ask God to punish you, I may make you feel miserable on phone, but I will never let anything or anyone trouble you, I can't bear that, its strange but, believe me its true.


        In good times, when you lie beside me, burying your face over my heart, I fear that this love, this feeling of inner fullness and outer completeness, the state of being one with you, won't stay and it does fade out and we have arguments and quarrels but, when they too pass away, we again fall into each others' arms and in the Lap of Love we lay.

Just to remind you, I Love You Jaan.

Yours Lovingly,
Amit.